Unchanging

When I'm up when I'm down when I'm tossed all around like a boat on the open sea
When I'm angry or sad, feeling selfish or mad you are there in spite of me
Though my life may be in need of some rearranging
Your love is always there for me unchanging, unchanging!


-Joe Zelek

Ele-Ele-Elevator

I wanted to find an elevator which would raise me to Jesus, for I am too small to climb the rough stairway of perfection. I searched, then, in the Scriptures for some sign of this elevator, the object of my desires, and I read these words coming from the mouth of Eternal Wisdom: "Whoever is a LITTLE ONE, let him come to me." And so I succeeded. I felt I had found what I was looking for. But wanting to know, O my God, what You would do to the very little one who answered Your call, I continued my search and this is what I discovered: "As one whom a mother caresses, so will I comfort you; you shall be carried at the breasts, and upon the knees they shall caress you." Ah! never did words more tender and more melodious come to give joy to my soul. The elevator which must raise me to heaven is Your arms, O Jesus! And for this I had no need to grow up, but rather I had to remain little and become this more and more.

-Story of a Soul

A Week and A Day

It's been a week since I posted but I feel like it's been forever and a day ago. This week has been so busy that it seems as though I've been here for 3 weeks.

A week and a day into classes, I'm not too tired...but I did do the unthinkable today: I woke up around the time that I normally did for work in the summer and got out of the house way early. 6AM wakeup and a 6:40 departure! Not bad, especially since my first class starts at 10:30. The only reason this happened was because I got dropped off and that's the only time I could get on campus....but we won't talk about that. ;)

As a reward for getting here early, I treated myself to some of our nasty coffee and my favorite blueberry muffin from our fake-starbucks downstairs of this building we call the JC. Even though I've been reading all morning...my slow self couldn't finish a simple 50 pages. So sad...I'm not used to reading much yet.

Well, time to go. I think my laptops about to die.

~Esa Cita

Come, Crossfire

Here starts the fall semester again at George Mason!

Wednesday marks the third day of classes....and it's going to be a rough year. Worth it, totally worth it, but rough....and it's going to be the year. The year of the best thing.


This is going to be the year of dreams coming true, of wonderful being overcome by even more wonders. It's going to be the year where I work my butt off to find the marvelous fruits of my labor, where things that we never thought would be possible will take the world by storm. We won't know what hit us, we won't understand why we're so on FIRE.

This year is the year of the FIRE.

And now, I will do my all-nighter to make sure I don't lose the flame already and will rest it off at night before my easy Thursdays!!!

~Esa Cita

Home Alone

I will have completed my first "week" of being home alone!! Yikes.

As the oldest of 7 kids, that's a big accomplishment. I NEVER come home to an empty silent dark house at night. I can probably count the number of times that has happened. Which is about 6 after this week... and this one time I remember coming home on a Friday to find that my family was all out.


After being gone since Monday, my grandparents come home tonight! I'm excited. I won't see them or my cousins who are coming as well, but I will welcome them with the clean laundry and sheets that will be ready for them when they arrive.

Last night was my lovely co-worker Kaego's birthday!!! She turned the big 2-1. Such a big girl. Besides the annoying drunk people at Cafe Asia, I would say that the night was a success. Kaego wore her Birthday Princess banner and we all had our cake, sang and ate it too. At work that morning, our co-worker Allie and I gave her an amazing celebration before camp started and we even now have "best-friends-forever" rings together since that celebration. It was a good night, and we dressed in our outfits one of our kids "bought us." Thank you Daniel. Allie and I also payed for the birthday dinner with Sophie's tip. Thank you Sophie. I love it when I get tips from my kids.


Well, I need to go pack and get ready to leave. Tonight I'm celebrating my boo-boo's birthday dinner with his familia back home in VA, and the next morning we're heading out to VA beach for the day. Yahhhhhoooo! I can't find my swimsuit anywhere here in MD. I do hope it's in VA. I guess I'll find out.

~Esa Cita

Summer Living

It's late again and I'm not in bed yet. Bad!

I decided to blog since it's been a while.

So here I am, chilling in Maryland and working at my summer camp in Georgetown Prep. My six-year olds keep me busy and quite drained of energy. My back is killing me; I haven't been taking good enough care of my body. Things like eating and sleeping have been taking the back-burner lately, and yesterday I almost blacked out...but I am happy. I'm so not ready for classes to begin again and the rest of my life to keep on happening...is that terrible? I just want to not be 20 for as long as possible.

Speaking of being 20, my birthday was about a week and a half ago. Since my family went on vacation that weekend, I didn't have a chance to really do things with friends...but it still was a wonderful day just as well. My boyfriend took me out to coffee that morning and my co-workers surprised me with treats and goodies and cakes and cupcakes....and the whole camp sang to me and I wore an amazing hat. It was the smiles and happy celebrations like as if it was a national holiday that made me feel super special. My aftercare kids made me cards, which made me smile.


I love people who love me.


So tomorrow my grandparents are taking me to a fund-raising event for a politician here in Maryland for my birthday outing. I'm pretty excited...they've known this dude's mom since they've met.

In other news, Fidel Castro made it into the news yesterday. Interesting.

Anyways, I got a ticket this past weekend! Wah :( Court date is next month. I feel bad because I was with Julia-Anne and she had to deal with my foolishness. Buuuuuuuuuuuut...I did get to see Despicable Me.

To do:
-make lunch so don't die tomorrow
-shower
-wash dishes
-fill out paperwork
-get clothes for tomorrow


Good night blog!!!

~Esa Cita

The Most Beautiful Thing Ever

It is Jesus that you seek when you dream of happiness;
He is waiting for you when nothing else you find satisfies you;
He is the beauty to which you are so attracted;
it is He who provoked you with that thirst for fullness
that will not let you settle for compromise;
it is He who urges you to shed the masks of a false life;
it is He who reads in your heart your most genuine choices,
the choices that others try to stifle.

It is Jesus who stirs in you the desire
to do something great with your lives,
the will to follow an ideal, the refusal to allow yourselves
to be ground down by mediocrity,
the courage to commit yourselves humbly and patiently
to improving yourselves and society,
making the world more human and more fraternal.

-JPII