Fall 2009

It's crazy.
This semester was going to be
the one where I was PERFECT.

I think I've become far from it, but now that I analyze the semester, I know that it's been a really tough one. Perfection doesn't come easily, in fact it hardly comes to people at all, but despite it all I know that it's all down to me in the end.

I cannot make excuses, because it's what I decided. J. Mill, the philosopher, would totally love me right now.

I'm proud of me this semester, yet down in the sense that I had to make some sacrifices.

I feel that I'm always going to be making even harder sacrifices as time moves on though. I think that's my lesson of the semester.

I started this semester with a bang: confident, happy, and motivated. I ended up coming out of the semester tougher, more confident, secure, tired, and still happy. I'm burnt out to the core, but I've learned to come up from even that. I'm so proud of myself for not giving up. I'm proud for throwing myself out there into uncertainty. I'm so glad that I came out of this semester with a stronger version of myself.

I don't think I really changed my personality, but I definitely changed in the way I advertise my personality. It used to be so much more difficult for others to see who "me" was because I didn't care how I looked or what others thought of me, and now I'm more aggressive and secure when I deal with others. My confidence has spread to more aspects of my life, and I can attack pressures so much better now. This will help me in time to come.

I'm excited for the rest of the year though. I can't wait to do more things. I can't wait for the rest of my life.

Thanksgiving break starts on Wednesday, and then it's finals time!!!! Crazy crazy. I GOT this, Cita will attack. :)

Now to attack IT assignments and Spanish work until Philosophy class....

~Esa Cita <3