Grr.
My back is still hurting and I've already taken my meds...why do they not work?!?!?!
Uhg.
Maybe they're working, it's just that my real pain is so bad that my meds can only make it LESSER....
I read Hosea 6:something this morning and it was about how many people wail to God when they should be going to Him with LOVE.
Without love, it's useless. Everything you do is pointless. Just think, a great big waste because you thought that actions alone are what save you.
It got me started to thinking about how many times I've been in a situation where I'd end up wailing and wailing to God to fix my problems, even with great faith that He would answer. Although, for some reason, those wailings of "prayers" just didn't seem right. I guess that's what the problem was. I wasn't being in a relationship with Him when I was crying out, I was just wailing and expecting Him to save me, like a little spoiled brat that doesn't want a relationship with you...she just wants you to buy her those M&M's at the check-out counter of Giant/Winn Dixie/Navarro's/Safeway/Schnuck's.
It's the relationship, and I couldn't even see it until now. I knew that there was some type of special thing that went on when I prayed and knew that He was there; that He would hear and take care of me.....It was when I would be in a relationship with God. Unfortunately slow little me can't seem to put two and two together and realize that it's the relationship. Gotta love how the simplest things can get overlooked.
So, my goal is keep building this relationship up.
I need to get tougher on my Lent sacrifices this coming week, the meds weren't letting me but I'm gonna try to get out of bed on my Lent time. My meds aren't as strong on my anymore!
Oh yeah, and I'm finishing up my case study TODAY. Yes, I will. No if, ands, or buts. It's due tomorrow via email and I need it to be good. Maybe I'll even get started on my Spanish hw. Oh that would be nicee.
Tomorrow is my Godfather's birthday! We're all going out after Mass and then coming back home for cake. Mmmmmmmmm. I love Sundays during Lent.
Now, it's back to researching the Philippines. Their governement is making me mad, I haven't found much progress in new data....so that means that either my case study is going to be super depressing because they aren't succeeding in attempts to better the wastewater situation, or that I'm just an idiot that hasn't researched enough. It may be a mix of both, because anything published in 2010 or 2009 is using info from early 2000's....these fools I tell ya.
~Esa Cita
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