Tough Conversation. Growing up?

Yes, it's what the title says.

I had a tough conversation today. It was a grown up one. Not that I never have mature conversations, but this particular one was really difficult. Speaking from your heart is tough, even if it is on a Facebook chat.

Sometimes I like to think back to the times when sucking your thumb and holding on to your teddy bear would solve a problem.

To some extent, I still think that it does. (Except the sucking your thumb part...)

That's why for Holy Week, I'm giving up my teddy bear along with my other personal sacrifices. If I did still suck my thumb, I probably would give that up too.....but thankfully I grew out of that about about 15 years ago.

Last night I found myself in a scary situation, please read a diary entry from last night, provided below...

Diary entry of last night:

"Okay. I'm different. I've changed a lot. It's a Saturday night and I'm doing homework, and honestly feel okay with that. Something is wrong, or right. I am happy & I am being a total geek. Ana laughed at me, and Tim said that his lil Carmen is growing up. Perhaps my joke that turning twenty makes you wise will actually happen this summer."

I think growing up is hard. It's no fun. It's no fun to try to make people understand your decision. It's no fun when your priorities change and other people are affected. It's no fun. :/

But I know what's important to me. I know that I have to sacrifice not pleasing everyone. I know what my heart is telling me and what I consider worth the aggravation.

The most important thing to remember is to be able at any moment to sacrifice what you are for what you can be. Uhg. What a Lent it's been.

Off to edit another paper for Spanish. Can't wait to be finished with my last Spanish class ever! I'm talking about "tradiciones" that my family brought from Cuba and how they kept them alive in America.

~Esa Cita