Fear. Bravery. Courage.

"I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us."

Maybe that means that I need to stay strong, but that I need to quit a few things in order to get where I'm supposed to be. I need to trust that without these things I will be not only okay, but BETTER and ON FIRE.

Ahg. That's scary.

Ironic, we're supposed to just give up somethings.... because we don't stop believing that there is something worth waiting for. That we are supposed to trust that giving up on that something will bring something else. I look at missionaries that are assigned at my school....they're living off of self-fund-raised salaries because they believe that God provides them with people to help their rent, that's true trust. They reach out to scary places, and sacrifice their lives to be there for others. They scare me, they are intensely devoted in such a different way that society defines devotion.

People are scared, we are so scared to push ourselves into uncertainty. Even the people who are known to be brave and attack things and ever give up need to challenge themselves. My nickname, or "LKA" that my sorority gave me after I became a sister was "Braveheart." I jumped into uncertainty and attacked what I was challenged with. But.....I fear quitting. I'm a slave to never giving up. I motivate myself on fear. I need to challenge myself to let go of my motivations that are based on fear.


~Esa Cita