Saturday, November 24, 2012

The journey to the road

I'm currently sitting at my parent's dining room table, surrounded by a (nearly completed) project that took me about a month and quite a few dollars to finish.  For the past hour, Pandora has been playing the perfect songs for me to listen to, and I'm asking Jesus for the strength and desire to return to Kentucky after such a nice time visiting friends, mission partners, and family.

In twenty-four hours, I'll be back in the land of excellent coffee-shops and conversation.  But for now, I'm celebrating Wegmans' pizza and college friendships, and I'm smiling at these two paragraphs from a G.K. Chesterton essay I found on a friend's coffee-table this evening.

A correspondent has written me an able and interesting letter in the matter of some allusions of mine to the subject of communal kitchens. He defends communal kitchens very lucidly from the standpoint of the calculating collectivist; but, like many of his school, he cannot apparently grasp that there is another test of the whole matter, with which such calculation has nothing at all to do. He knows it would be cheaper if a number of us ate at the same time, so as to use the same table. So it would. It would also be cheaper if a number of us slept at different times, so as to use the same pair of trousers. But the question is not how cheap are we buying a thing, but what are we buying? It is cheap to own a slave. And it is cheaper still to be a slave.
My correspondent also says that the habit of dining out in restaurants, etc., is growing. So, I believe, is the habit of committing suicide. I do not desire to connect the two facts together. It seems fairly clear that a man could not dine at a restaurant because he had just committed suicide; and it would be extreme, perhaps, to suggest that he commits suicide because he has just dined at a restaurant. But the two cases, when put side by side, are enough to indicate the falsity and poltroonery of this eternal modern argument from what is in fashion. The question for brave men is not whether a certain thing is increasing; the question is whether we are increasing it. I dine very often in restaurants because the nature of my trade makes it convenient: but if I thought that by dining in restaurants I was working for the creation of communal meals, I would never enter a restaurant again; I would carry bread and cheese in my pocket or eat chocolate out of automatic machines. For the personal element in some things is sacred. I heard Mr. Will Crooks put it perfectly the other day: "The most sacred thing is to be able to shut your own door."
Kind of a nerdy thing to giggle at, but I find this man's passionate usage of words quite charming and refreshing.

Back to laundry, packing up a car, and possibly sleeping. ;)

~Esa Cita

Cast away that despair produced by the realization of your weakness. It's true: financially you are a zero, and socially another zero, and another in virtues, and another in talents... But to the left of these zeros is Christ. And what an immeasurable figure it turns out to be! -St. Josemaria Escriva

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Home Sweet Virginia

It's been twenty-four hours since I arrived at my parents' house in Virginia, and within this time I have:

-gone to Mass, prayed
-gotten coffee with a good friend
-done arts and crafts with a good friend
-colored with my brother
-did work with my brother
-told friends that I was in town
-ate my first family dinner in months
-went to a surprise birthday party, saw lots of old friends
-saw Lauren Murray ♥

It's been so great to be back. Tomorrow, my brother Ricky arrives from the Air Force Academy and the whole clan will be reunited finally!

~Esa Cita

Saturday, November 10, 2012

A night for letters and travels

I sit here with my little pink laptop, signing a bunch of letters and listening to a movie in the background. Memories of a time long ago are coming back, and I am reminded of my imminent journey next week to my "hometown" of Northern Virginia.  It's been a while, and I do miss my ole' snobby-yet-familiar stomping grounds.  DC chillin'.  A year ago today, I was making plans to go to Boston, and today I made some to get back home.  Tomorrow, I will be in Nashville, listening to awesome music, and I won't have a care in the world.

Beer, water, coffee, pecan pie, guava, and Cuban crackers accompanied my real dinner tonight as I've been watching movies, reading letters, and gazing at old photos.  I'm digging the neat things that people collect during a short lifetime, and am realizing just how fast the time is passing these days.  Soon enough, I'll be celebrating Thanksgiving with a bunch of Cubans and I'll be surrounded by little people.

But for now, I'll wait...

As if I was waiting at a restaurant.
One time, my girl, Brooke Fraser, wrote a song called Love is Waiting. Maybe I should remember that in a special way this coming week.

~Esa Cita

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Missing you

Dear Blog,

I've been missing you. I don't really have much more time that I will be on posting, but I wanted to share a little quote that was placed on my heart today.


[Christ] “intercedes for us, otherwise I should despair. My weaknesses are many and grave, many and grave indeed, but more abundant still is your medicine. We might have thought that your word was far distant from union with man, and so we might have despaired of ourselves, if this Word had not become flesh and dwelt among us.” -St. Augustine
That's what I think is marvelous.


~Esa Cita

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Paternal Unit-Favorite Version

~Texting with my Dad~

Me: Who's picking me up from the airport?
Dada: Your favorite father deluxe.
Me: Excellent. Carry on, sir.
Dada: Outstanding.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Galaxies

Tonight, my dear friend whom I affectionately call Kay Kay is sleeping over.  The next morning, we're heading off to Maryland to drop me off at the airport where I will fly to North Carolina, then Florida!

I've missed my dear Florida, so this will be a fabulous adventure.   When I first came to the U.S. as an infant, I lived in Niceville, Florida for two years after a 5-week stay in Alabama.  Yes, it's called Niceville, and my neighbors were very nice. 

Despite its lovliness, I can't wait to get out of dear 'Ole Virginia, the place for lovers.  It's been about five weeks here, and I haven't gone far since I stayed in Illinois five weeks ago.

Sad thing today: I will bid farewell to my boyfriend after we both get off from work.  I won't see him until Thanksgiving, so that's not too cool.  I refuse to do anything silly like sob or say sappy things...that would just be embarrassing. 

Okay, back to cleaning, letter-writing, and doing things today.


~Esa Cita

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Warrior Princess Mode

A love stronger than death.


I've always been a Warrior Princess from the day I was born.  Between being the daughter of a Colonel in the Air Force/black belt in Tae Kwon Do/All-Air Force Wrestler, having five ridiculous brothers, and from playing soccer and war with all my cool homeschool dude friends, there was just no way that dresses and and pink could ever compare to the romantic dreams of one day being a flight nurse, rescuing soldiers on the battlefield and then getting shot in the leg from enemy fire as a I pulled a dying soldier into safety.

The funny thing about being a Warrior Princess is that despite the inner tendency to fight, be dramatic, and be tough, there is that extreme sensitivity and royalty that comes with the Princess part.


You get your own room when you're a princess.  You also never really are in grave danger nor are  totally alone despite your passionate and independent tendencies.  You have this ownership and royalty about you, deep inside your soul, one which isn't taken away by circumstance or societal status.  It's written inside of you, and civilization must flock to your standards.


My experience of being a woman has been one where there is a kind of power of being both a warrior and a princess.  I don't really know what it's like to be a man, but I've been told and have seen that it's very much one of awe from a woman's mystery and majesty.

When I was a toddler, I used to ask my Dad to give me a military haircut. I'm so glad now that my mom said no.

When I had crushes on boys, I played freeze tag and beat them to make sure that they were impressed by my stellar skills and pretty shirt.

When I wasn't allowed to go out, I climbed out of my window and jumped off the roof to "run away" ...for a 20-minute walk.

When I had my re-version back into having a deeper relationship with Jesus, it was a St. Ignatius kind of experience. Physical injury from a car accident leading to deep prayer life----yeah, budddyyyy.

When I began developing in my prayer life, Josemaria Escriva became my dude.You know, the guy who tells all his loved ones to suck it up and be a courageous lover of Christ. Sigh, what a stud.

Everything with me has been a battlefield, a dramatic and romantic dance, a roller-coaster passion of life.

That's a bit of why I really really like St. Cecilia.  She converted her husband on their wedding night, and they both died for the faith.  After bleeding for three days with huge slash of the sword on her neck, St. Cecilia died throwing up a sign for the Holy Trinity ("Three persons, One God").  This lady goes hard.  This lady means business: she's a true Warrior Princess.

Amen, alleluia.  I could only dream of one day being on that level of swag.

~Esa Cita