Distraction: I think I'm going to skip spanish today. :/
Bad girl...I need to finish this paper. I'll go to my teacher afterwards to get the stuff I missed.
God, please save me from this agony. This paper is the death of me. Inspire me please.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Paper is due at 4:30 today, i have another class at 3. so technically I have until 245 to finish this paper so that i can print it, drive to the other side of campus and arrive on time to Spanish. Ohhh the rush, how I hate it soooo.
It's a bit frustrating to find peace.
Peace is not an absence of war, it is a virtue, a state of mind, a disposition for benevolence, confidence, justice.
It's a bit frustrating to find peace.
Peace is not an absence of war, it is a virtue, a state of mind, a disposition for benevolence, confidence, justice.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Lent Thoughts
"Even now, says the LORD,
return to me with your whole heart,
with fasting, and weeping, and mourning;"
"Rend you hearts, not your garments"
"Then the LORD was stirred to concern for his land and took pity on his people."
Lent: we are called to repent in spite of the difficulties and rough times in our lives. Despite the times we've screwed up, it's important to know that we must always search and yearn for him. We must always do our best for HIM. It's all for Him. He's the one, he's the journey that is worth it.
~Esa Cita
return to me with your whole heart,
with fasting, and weeping, and mourning;"
"Rend you hearts, not your garments"
"Then the LORD was stirred to concern for his land and took pity on his people."
Lent: we are called to repent in spite of the difficulties and rough times in our lives. Despite the times we've screwed up, it's important to know that we must always search and yearn for him. We must always do our best for HIM. It's all for Him. He's the one, he's the journey that is worth it.
~Esa Cita
Relationships
Sometimes I wonder if I'm missing out on something. I just am not really looking. Is that weird? I feel that I'm not getting anywhere and that I'm all alone. I keep remembering the past and how it used to be. I miss him and his love. But what if there's someone else that I'm made for? It won't work out for us now.
Well I'm going to go read for lectoring and then shower....
~Esa Cita
Well I'm going to go read for lectoring and then shower....
~Esa Cita
:)
The best thing about Lent is the passion.
Lent is all about pushing yourself to the limits for something more. We make sacrifices to die to weak selves in remembrance of the greatness that is to come. By greatness to come I mean Easter back then and our anticipation for His Second coming!!!
At the Catholic Campus Ministry here at my university, the songs we sing at Mass are praise and worship, which actually is kind of strange for the culture of this area but it's full of passion. I love singing the songs because they are inspirational music that applies to what is going on in the Church liturgical calendar.
Lent and Easter isn't just celebrated for 40 days, we celebrate Jesus' resurrection and anticipate His second coming every week.
Loveee ittt.
Lent is all about pushing yourself to the limits for something more. We make sacrifices to die to weak selves in remembrance of the greatness that is to come. By greatness to come I mean Easter back then and our anticipation for His Second coming!!!
At the Catholic Campus Ministry here at my university, the songs we sing at Mass are praise and worship, which actually is kind of strange for the culture of this area but it's full of passion. I love singing the songs because they are inspirational music that applies to what is going on in the Church liturgical calendar.
Lent and Easter isn't just celebrated for 40 days, we celebrate Jesus' resurrection and anticipate His second coming every week.
Loveee ittt.
Pushing
Untouchable because I have you be my side
You're calling, reaching
I'm blindly searching, constantly running
Just running for you
True happiness is all I want, I want you so much
You're all i need
True love, true voice, true hold.
You're the true hold that I grasp for.
You're my peace
You're the answer.
How could I ever be sad?
How could I lose hope?
All that matters is you,
All that provides is you.
I can't forget you, I just can't.
We will remember you.
the prayer is a relationship. It's an exchange of You and I loving. Mostly it's me trying to reach You, always it's You pouring out your love.
You're calling, reaching
I'm blindly searching, constantly running
Just running for you
True happiness is all I want, I want you so much
You're all i need
True love, true voice, true hold.
You're the true hold that I grasp for.
You're my peace
You're the answer.
How could I ever be sad?
How could I lose hope?
All that matters is you,
All that provides is you.
I can't forget you, I just can't.
We will remember you.
the prayer is a relationship. It's an exchange of You and I loving. Mostly it's me trying to reach You, always it's You pouring out your love.
STRESSFUL WEEK
After sleeping in this morning, I had a lovely breakfast and took another nap. I'm feeling pretty nice and healthy except for the fact that I haven't been working out or run three miles since about 4 weeks ago.
Stupid snow and laziness throws everything off. I have a 3-5 page paper due tomorrow, which wouldn't be so bad if the topic was different. Perhaps being given a week to come up with the resolution to the Isreali-Palestinian conflict has been a bit challenging...world peace in 24hours is a bit of a task in my opinion.
The stress is piing up, I believe I have two midterms next week as well and I've spent the whole weekend hanging out with friends and attending sorority meetings.
It's now 4PM and I need to practice the readings for tonight, practice music, write a paper or at least most of it, eat something and take a shower all before 7:30PM. That's 3 and half hours. Impossible? Perhaps. I got this, I have to.
Okay, so last semseter I used to make goals for the week, I wanna try that again:
-FINISH MY PAPER
-Staay on top of spanish homework
-KICK BUTT ON ECON MIDTERM
-KICK BUTT ON EVPP MIDTERM
-EVPP ASSIGNMENT
Why is everything except spanish in capital letters? Because I HAVE to do it, or else grades will go down.
No working out this week. I'm not going to have time. I'm scared. And stressed. Whywhywhy do I always have to lector and sing on days that are critical??!!! I just don't understand. Anyways, I need to go now.
-Eat
-Shower-Practice for masses
-CONF paper: read and take notes and make a really really good outline; start writing
Stupid snow and laziness throws everything off. I have a 3-5 page paper due tomorrow, which wouldn't be so bad if the topic was different. Perhaps being given a week to come up with the resolution to the Isreali-Palestinian conflict has been a bit challenging...world peace in 24hours is a bit of a task in my opinion.
The stress is piing up, I believe I have two midterms next week as well and I've spent the whole weekend hanging out with friends and attending sorority meetings.
It's now 4PM and I need to practice the readings for tonight, practice music, write a paper or at least most of it, eat something and take a shower all before 7:30PM. That's 3 and half hours. Impossible? Perhaps. I got this, I have to.
Okay, so last semseter I used to make goals for the week, I wanna try that again:
-FINISH MY PAPER
-Staay on top of spanish homework
-KICK BUTT ON ECON MIDTERM
-KICK BUTT ON EVPP MIDTERM
-EVPP ASSIGNMENT
Why is everything except spanish in capital letters? Because I HAVE to do it, or else grades will go down.
No working out this week. I'm not going to have time. I'm scared. And stressed. Whywhywhy do I always have to lector and sing on days that are critical??!!! I just don't understand. Anyways, I need to go now.
-Eat
-Shower-Practice for masses
-CONF paper: read and take notes and make a really really good outline; start writing
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
Something I Never Forgot
"My momma asked about you, my partners did too; I know your daughter will be so amazin' like you; and I know you probably wish you never met me, and I just wish you never forget me, and let me say please don't worry bout the women I have been with no engagement can amount to your friendship; and I hope that nigga know he got a queen, and all I can do is dream....DAMN!"
--Stuckkkkk in my headd, sad addiction :/
I want healingggggggg.
I want to be healed. Heal me Lord, or at least show me the way.
~Esa Cita
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
blewhwerkjfhd
Hey worldddddd
It's been a while.
I'm trapped at home with this snowstorm of the century for the DC/Maryland/Virginia area...
The trapped-ness has made me quite bored and lazy. And not to mention thoughtful.
You're my dirty little secret that no one knows. You're the truth that no one can understand. You're the liar that I just can't trust. You're the fool that just won't get it; that will be the death of me one day.
It's been a while.
I'm trapped at home with this snowstorm of the century for the DC/Maryland/Virginia area...
The trapped-ness has made me quite bored and lazy. And not to mention thoughtful.
You're my dirty little secret that no one knows. You're the truth that no one can understand. You're the liar that I just can't trust. You're the fool that just won't get it; that will be the death of me one day.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Not yet
Searching for meaning, looking for satisfaction.
What is there to do that would fill the empty space?
I'm searching here, I'm searching there, I just can't seem to find it.
You're there, I just know it. You're laughing at my run. I cannot seem to grab it. I must be missing something.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Thoughts
You don't need things people or organizations to make you. You need something greater. Those are the objects that you use to get to greatness and to make wonderful things happen, but let them take over you life and you will become a slave to it. Use them to bring good, don't let them use you and run you.
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